Not been posting coz I feel a bit funny. Also quite depressed about England having that perfectly legal goal disallowed - not that's why I'm fed up.
I have been reading few a few of my freinds journals, and I am stuned and saddened by how many people I know what to kill them selves, or who are so misareble so much of the time, and can't find a way out. It remineds me so much of myself uto a couple of years ago - and of so many people I used to know who have died.
Lee: Died of AIDs becasue he shared needles - Used drugs to escape his depression
Jay: Died of a drugs over dose (some bastard spiked his drink with alcohol when he was high - lead to more drugs - lead to a nasy death) - Also used drugs to escape depression
Andy: Died becasue he was drink driving - drank becasue he was messed up
Kerry: Not dead as far as I know (lost touch a long time ago because of what happened) Tried to kill herself with paracetamol, didn't accept help, almost had her child taken away becasue she was mentally unwell and wouldn't get help. Depressed cos she had the most messed up childhood I have ever known of
Fabrise: Drowned himself becasue he thought like his friend, he would die of liver failure (alcholic) - I never found out why he was depressed. I didn't know him long enough.
PLEASE DON'T BE ADDED TO THIS LIST! I'VE LOST TOO MANY GOOD FRIENDS! HELP IS THERE!
I know becasue I had to ask for it myself. Want my story? http://www.jeanchene.btinternet.co.uk/depressed.htm