It's official... I need a complete body transplant! I need a newer, slimmer model, finely tuned etc...
My gut is still giving me hassle. I'm not being sick any more, and I can eat again without it knocking me sideways for 2 hours, but I'm still not right. And I'm still having problems with my right ear! How long has that been now? My arms are peeling from the shoulders down making me look scratty and horrible, and my facial skin is dried out and dull too.
Being back on my diet has made me a bit fed up too. I know it needs to be done, it's not healthy for me to be so over weight, even though I am much slimmer than I used to be, I am still officialy over weight. But I'm feeling stressed out so much of the time that all I want to do is reach for the stuff that's bad for me! I keep beating myself up over stopping the WW food plan and going back to eating what ever I felt like whenever I felt like it. If I had stuck to it I would be at my goal weight now by loosing a stone, not further away by GAINING one....
Urgh... It's great this, isn't it? Summer is supposed to be my "happy" time, especially when it's as sunny as it is this summer. But I am denying my body all the bad, unhealthy, toxic things that it loves... all in the name of health. And that's making me sad. Mind you, can you imagin what I would be like if I was trying to do all this in winter?? Doesn't bare thinking about!
But right now, in this house, with various bans between us on food, booze and fags, it's... erm... interesting living.
To caps things off, the hot water is playing up again, the cat had brought flies into the house again (why do we bother with frontline and flie collars, they don't seem to work too well), and a giant spider hs made my front room it's home and I'll have to break through a huge web in order to get to the book case! Maybe I should leave it, it might eat the flies!
My gut is still giving me hassle. I'm not being sick any more, and I can eat again without it knocking me sideways for 2 hours, but I'm still not right. And I'm still having problems with my right ear! How long has that been now? My arms are peeling from the shoulders down making me look scratty and horrible, and my facial skin is dried out and dull too.
Being back on my diet has made me a bit fed up too. I know it needs to be done, it's not healthy for me to be so over weight, even though I am much slimmer than I used to be, I am still officialy over weight. But I'm feeling stressed out so much of the time that all I want to do is reach for the stuff that's bad for me! I keep beating myself up over stopping the WW food plan and going back to eating what ever I felt like whenever I felt like it. If I had stuck to it I would be at my goal weight now by loosing a stone, not further away by GAINING one....
Urgh... It's great this, isn't it? Summer is supposed to be my "happy" time, especially when it's as sunny as it is this summer. But I am denying my body all the bad, unhealthy, toxic things that it loves... all in the name of health. And that's making me sad. Mind you, can you imagin what I would be like if I was trying to do all this in winter?? Doesn't bare thinking about!
But right now, in this house, with various bans between us on food, booze and fags, it's... erm... interesting living.
To caps things off, the hot water is playing up again, the cat had brought flies into the house again (why do we bother with frontline and flie collars, they don't seem to work too well), and a giant spider hs made my front room it's home and I'll have to break through a huge web in order to get to the book case! Maybe I should leave it, it might eat the flies!
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