About my OU studies this time, as well as the wedding.
Probably nothing a good nights sleep wouldn't sort out, but there's a problem there too. I'm not sleeping too well at the moment. Again. And I can feel axiety acttacks creeping up again. Seriously considering going back to the docs, but I get the feeling he's only going to say it's pre-wedding jitters. But so what if it is... GIVE ME SOMETHING TO KEEP MY CALM!
Oh, and on the 23rd of this month, my next course starts. AND GUESS WHEN IT ENDS?
One week after the wedding. When I'll be away on honeymoon. Which means that in the week before the wedding I have not only to get through and over my hen night, and stress about last minute wedding things, I also have to complete a mini assignment and my major assignment, and have them submitted EARLY.
At least I booked that week off work.
Oh... and it's three months today to the wedding by the way. Looking at the time now (4.25pm) this time in three months we'll have just finished our vows and be getting ushered out for photographs.
I'm terrified!! It's come round so quickly and I know we haven't done everything we need to do yet. It's so close and so real and has me just a little bit panicked! Not to mention the fact that I am NO WHERE NEAR the weight I should be!
Feeling like this makes me want to eat too, but I never feel like I have time to cook anything. So I nibble. To his credit, when we've done the shopping, Yorkie has only bought healthy option snacks.... but that hasn't stopped me eating them! Eat enough ryvita and cottage cheese and you're not really dieting anymore, are you?
My skin keeps coming up in rashes. Stress. All down my face. Itchy and hot, like an allergy.
I still have to contact someone about skip hire, and somehow pay for it, so I can clear out all the junk under the house, so that we can get the boiler man in to scrap the 2 old boilers ans fit one nice new combi in the cellar. Not done that yet.
I have to get Fizgig to the vets for his pod-lopping-op (to prevent spraying and a multitue of ginger kittens taking over the neighbourhood) and find the money for that.
We STILL haven't filled in and sent off the booklet with the wedding vows and reading in it. And we need to find money for that too!!! We HAVE to do that this weekend....
Oh, and I HAVE to get a spare tire for the car too as we don't have one anymore. Shame I can't use the one from round my fat blubbery BELLY!
I HAVE NO MONEY AND NO TIME!
I'M GETTING NO SLEEP AND NO REST!
I NEED A BREAK!!!!