Shocking isn't it....
But you see the thing is Jack's going to be 5 in a few days. Hardly a baby any more. And Tom will be starting proper nursery in September, and George will be 1 next month and is starting to lose interest in me feeding him - I think it's that last one that's the kicker...
My body is screaming out to get pregnant again. Even though I am still using my implant, and still breast feeding, I just want to get pregnant. Makes me wonder if that implant is still working to be honest. Every free moment I have I'm planning trying to conceive, pregnancy, the birth... dreaming of the future.
((How will I cope when we have our 4 kids and I'm not allowed an more?? Mmm, worry about that then.))
I'm not helping my self though. I've started back on the pregnancy forums, and gazing stupidly at my fertility charts which aren't even working right now because I have the implant in. I keep reaching for the phone to book an appointment to have it taken out, and then reminding myself that its way too early, stop being stupid!
My change in mood has been noticed by my husband too (and he quite likes it, iykwim)
I'm very excited at the thought of trying for another baby (find it hard to say our last baby though), and I want to talk about it all the time, but can't. Who would I tell? My friends and family think I'm crazy and will sensibly point out that I'm talking about it way too early too.
So blog it is.
This might come up a lot.
For a long while >0D