Secret Diary Post - Counting Days and Points

I am SOOOOOO struggling with watching my diet! Most of the time I feel like I could kill for some carbs.

Soft bread rolls, hot dog buns, that kind of thing. Pasta, rice, noodles, creamy mash.... It's all I want! Not good when you're trying not to gain a ton of weight!

Where I nabbed this photo from
and why I'm trying not to get hooked!

I have revised my Weight Watchers. I was going to wait until 2nd Tri to do this but I changed my mind! I have altered it to say I am breastfeeding which gives me extra points so I can have what Bean is asking for, but not gorging myself for the sake of it. I can change it again to "maintain" instead of "loose" weight, but I'm leaving that for now. I'm sure I will be glad of those points later in the pregnancy.

But as well as this sudden increase in appetite, I am also being sick. Although not after I have eaten. I feel sick almost all the time. I feel like I have eaten too much salt or swallowed a mouthful of seawater. In the mornings, before I've even got up most times, I'm nauseous and have to concentrate hard of my breathing to avoid being sick. Sometimes it works. Sometimes it doesn't and I have to run to the bathroom and hope that my delightful children have remembered to flush (they usually haven't)

Hubby is getting fed up with me being tired, forgetful, and useless all the time. He doesn't say anything, but I can tell. I've never been this tired this early before, but then I've never been pregnant and had 3 kids already before. I don't recall ever feeling this sick before, but I'm not being as physically sick as a lot of other women I've chatted with so I'm trying not to harp on about that too much. My Dad asked if there was a chance I was having twins, and what would I do if I was. Simple answer is "deal with it" but I'm hoping there is just one little Bean in there. Yes we would deal with twins, we'd find a way. But I'd prefer not to have to! And anyway, it's not that likely.

Anyway, it's now just 6 days till my booking appointment! I can't wait! I am so excited! I really really hope she can give me a scan appointment!