CharlieBeth's "My Life As Mumma Walker"

I offically hate my teeth! Had to go to the dentist again today - never spend like 8 years not going to the dentist, it doesn't make nastiness go away.... it catches up with you and hurts even more! I have had a numb face for 4 hours and fillings put in I woudn't not have had if I'd gone all those years! Not happy! Had a random thing happen to me yesterday that freaked me out to start with. I know I have my LJ on public, not restriced to friends, but I have to say that even though the whole world could read my journal.... people I actually know reading it didn't cross my mind (apart from you lovely people on my friends list, natch - and my paranoia about my Boss reading it *gulp*). So when I got an email from my ex Shaun I was a little gob smacked - stunned even! Hi Shaun! He sent me a sweet little letter though, reminding me why we had been such good friends back then and trying to reassure me that his relationship with Si didn't actually start until AFTER we'd

With his permission (although the cheeky rat said I'd only do it coz it makes me sound good - RAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!)and in his defence: ---------------------------------------- ---- Chig Well you may be surprised to get this - I am not about to say I’m surprised to write it but after reading dome of the stuff you have written in your journal (Yes I came across your journal whilst surfing the net one evening) I decided now was the time I told you a few things I don’t think or maybe I did say at the time we ended. It wasn’t as you think an Internet affair - nothing actually started until after I had told you that faithful night. Yes I admit I had met him and believe me I was tempted but nothing happened. The time had come to admit who I really was. It was going to happen if I had met Si or not. I had accepted the fact that I was gay and living a lie and although it hurt you in the process, hurting you was never the outcome I wanted. That’s the only thing I have been ever truly sorry fo

I am AMAZED! The money dad promised me has actaully turned up! Not just the £50.00 in my bank, but another £80.00 through the post. This is to get my car fixed by the way - it needs new shockers, a new wing mirror and the front tires need the tracking sorted out. The tracking was a problem caused by dear old dad and his ideas for cheap fixes, so i'm taking the cash. I did try to talk him out of it - I don't like him giving me hand outs purely because he then uses the fact against me in his usual emotional blackmail bouts, but I am strapped, and the jobs really need doing.... beggers and choosers and such likeI think I fianlly managed to alter the work web site enough to make it fit on older moniters (low rez pc's were having hassles viewing my stuff), but now I have days of wonderful maths to look forward too - prices and that. I hate doing this bit. I'm no good at maths, and I can just about cope when I have the formulars writeen down, I can make them work and evrythin

EBay STILL have not paid ANY attention to ANY of my emails regarding this Direct Debit. They have not even deemed my comments / questions worthy of fobbing off - they havee simply IGNORED me! We now have only 21 things for sale - and I am completely unable to refund any one I need to refund becasue they have desided to block "checkout"! If only the web site was getting more hits - then I could tell them all to FUCK OFF! Having said that, the things we are manageing to sell are the nice high priced things, so at least we are getting some money in this week. We'll get NOTHING for the next two weeks, so I might as well make the most of it! Making good progress on my Sims Bustin Out on PS2 - might even finally get round to buying an ethernet connector from Glennand go on line with it at some point - maybe, if I can afford it. Speeaking of affording - the money Dad swore he'd send me (again) has actually turned up in my account today - shock horror! Looks like I will be ab

Not been posting coz I feel a bit funny. Also quite depressed about England having that perfectly legal goal disallowed - not that's why I'm fed up. I have been reading few a few of my freinds journals, and I am stuned and saddened by how many people I know what to kill them selves, or who are so misareble so much of the time, and can't find a way out. It remineds me so much of myself uto a couple of years ago - and of so many people I used to know who have died. Lee: Died of AIDs becasue he shared needles - Used drugs to escape his depression Jay: Died of a drugs over dose (some bastard spiked his drink with alcohol when he was high - lead to more drugs - lead to a nasy death) - Also used drugs to escape depression Andy: Died becasue he was drink driving - drank becasue he was messed up Kerry: Not dead as far as I know (lost touch a long time ago because of what happened) Tried to kill herself with paracetamol, didn't accept help, almost had her child taken away becasu

Work was ok, done loads of web site stuff - mostly updating the site map and splitting up the accessories and components pages so they load faster. Still no eBay - and now the bastard have started ignoring our emails again. BUT... About 4pm a bloke walks into the office. i vagely recognise him as being some one Glenn knows out side of work, only Glenn isnt there. I'm hoping he's back at 4.30, but with Glenn, you never really know. Chap sits down and say's he'll wait for Glenn, and sparks up a cig (no smoking in the office, but never mind - Glenn let him last time, so I'm not about to go menatl at him. Just sulk a bit). I deside NOT of offer him a brew, as I really ought to be working and not have random people harassing me. No such luck! About 4.35 Glenn does finally turn up - has a quick chat to the bloke (who I finally found out is called Peter) and bogs off!!! Peter asks if he should go too, and Glenn says "No, it's ok, unless Charlie's going to thro

I have HAD it with eBay - lazy, usless fuckers!!! We (Micro Amrkets) have a Direct Debet set up to pay them our listing fees - eBay HAVE used it before so we know it works. We ALWAYS have money in to cover it,and yet eBay fail to take the payment. As a resault (despite my contecting them over and over and over) they have cut us off. We can list NOTHING! What a set of arse wipes! On top of that, poor Gemma is now ill. She's been ill for ages actually, but today she went all pink, swollen and lumpy, so I sent her home. No eBay means there's no work for her anyway so she agreed to go - poor lass didn't want to leave me with all the work to do (she forgets I've always done all the work before she started, and will have to again when she leaves, bless) On the up side, Glenn seems to be more chipper. Busy and hassled, but not grumpy with me, Andrea or Gemma, so we're ok! lol I've finally got round to making another gamesites post. I've taken ages replying, but I k

You know, my Mum's the greatest! She bought me a house and a car, and "loaned" me two grand because I needed to get out of debt. And what does she want in return? NOTHING! On top of that, she's a wonderful sweet and loving person, very itelligent, with a cutting wit. She even works for the Samaritans, listening to other peoples problems down the phone, and not earning a penny for it. She also only looks 50 - not bad considering she was 60 on Saturday! John threw her a party on Sunday, and even Yorkie desidied to go in the end (ok, so I manuplutaled him into going, but he liked it really, lol). GUESTS (apart from us and john) Step sister Joanne, her son Fergus (8), bf Steve and his daughter (NAME???) Step Sister Julie, her twins John and Magda (4ish), and littlest son Leo (almost 1) Step brother Antoni and gf (forgot her name - and she's not the psycho-activist John made her out be with without even meeting her) John's batty (but great!) Aunts Joan and Mable (w

Got another stroppy note off Glenn ths morning - put me in a foul mood all day which was not improved by the buildng of a nasty thunderstorm (they always give me head aches), and mental people filling the supermarket and running me over with the trollies! Mark got back late on Wednesday though, I've not had chance to have a natter with him yet, but Gemma said he's had a great time. She obviusly wants some time for the two of them togther alone, so we wont be seeing them this weekend, althiough we did get invited to the Cirus with them (Moscow state is in town), but due to a sevear lack of funds, and Yorkie still not a happy bunny, we can't go (BOO!) Bought mum some more Euro's for her birthday tomorrow, still wish I was seeing her tomorrow instead of messing about with the step family all day sunday. It seems that Antoni's psycho-activist girlfriend is going to be there too, and I really don't want to be drawn into any "why muslims and great and jews are ba

Don't know how I've gone this - but I've gone lame and need to be put down by the vet! Woke up this morning with the WORST pain in my right leg. I can hardly walk on the bloody thing! Limping around like a LOON! Got a call from Fran last night, reminding me I need to pay that £45.00 for the Hen Night do next month. I know that's paying for the Limo and Club, but I'll still need a new outfit and money for drinks. I really want to go, but jeez, does she think I'm made of money? There's only me and Anne who haven't paid yet. I think she forgets that I'm having to support two people on my wage, and I have debts that need clearing too. *sulk* Also got a call from Juliette - who we haven't seen in ages. She really wanted me and Yorkie to meet her in the Bobbin last night, but (apart from having no money), we have to be up early to go to work / college and it seems Yorkie has caught that nasty cold thing I had on holiday, so he really doesn't want t

I guess I'm still in Glenn's bad books - forgot to post something for him yesterday (which he had forgotten himself on Friday....!) And he left me a very pointed note about it - and mentioned it about 3 times on the phone. Sorry mate - but you should have posted it yourself really, shouldn't you! Well, it's off now anyway. Although, from what I gather, I am not the only person he's being a bit off with. It seems that no one else knew he was in Kendal this week, Queen Street shop didn't kjow, neither did lancaster. I assume Festival Market knew coz that's where Alison works, but that's it! And every one has made comments about how it's about time and such - eep! He really needs to get his life back together and get happy again, coz he's affecting every one else very badly. That sounds really harsh - and it's not how it sounds when I actually say it verbally, I mean it with much sympathy really, but I'm hacked off so it sounds bad. Me and G

I think I hit the bottom of my mood yesterday. Didn't want to see any one or leave the house or anything. Spent most of the day re-organising our bedroom or just lying on the bed reading. I even pulled out of going to watch the England v France match at Fran and Simons house - missed out on a BBQ and time with my mates - all because I felt so low. Watched the match as home though - ad felt even WORSE at the end of it! DOOM! Think I must have done something right though coz I feel much better today. Got loads of web site stuff done, went to Queen Street Shop (one of ours) and had a natter to Darren while he loading some info I needed onto floppy for me. Spotted Gav on the way home, sat by the bus stop on a large carrier bag - would have given him a lift, but we were going in the other direction. I had to ask why he was sat on a bag, but no matter what I said, he's reponce was just "Whaa....?" so after the fourth attemp I gave up. Just Gav being Gav I suspect! No Andrea

Oh, I am in SUCH a funny mood!!! Every thing is winding me up - and not just me it seems. Glenn is not the happiest of bunnies today, and desided to pick at my work. Don't think he's actually pissed with me, I think he's just wound up by everything else - like living with Alison still and having to be in Kendal all next week. He's not even getting to play chess this weekend. Still, I don't think I needed to bear the brunt of it. Although the truth is, if I wasn't in such a crappy mood, I would have paid no attention anyway. I can feel myself hunting or a fight - but I'm gonna be good and stay home. If I scream at the PC I can't do any harm, lol Yorkie's at work again tomorrow (BOO!) But at least that's some extra cash our way. Means I'll have to kill two hours in Morecmabe though - unless I come home for an hour, but what's the point in that? Also hacked off about next weekend. Mum turns 60 a week tomorrow, and I really wanted to see her

Well - ww was not as bad as it could have been - only have 2lb of that horrendus hoilday-fat left to shift before I'm back on track again. Work's been odd today - none of us was in the mood to be there. Seems none of us girls are sleeping right at the mo. Andrea say's it's the heat, and I reccon she's right. I helpped Andrea set up a live journal of her own today too, woooo! Now we can rant in unisen! Deeply touched by Glenns generosity today. He strolled in and announced that he was gonna pay for three key members of staff to have a health plan with the company (and himself too) and guess who they are??? Me, Andrea..... and Alison (spit!) Stunned and shocked that he chose me, would have sworn he's have put Lynn on instead (she's been with him in the business since he started, is mananger of one of the shops, and was almost his mother in law a few years ago). He did slip in that it was "like a mini pay rise" which has me twitching slightly, as I am

Not a whole lot to report today. Worked my ass off with the web site again, gossiped about Glenn and Alison (slag) again, chit-chatted about bablefish with Glenn again.... And that's pretty much it. Day went pretty fast, but was neither exciting nore dull. Glenn paid Gemma her £40.00 for guessing the Catherine Cookson DVD's would not sell very well - she guess 4 out of a possible 23, we sold NONE! She was closest. Not bad eh? £40.00 for NOT managing to sell something! Yorkie has discovered we have Snap Dragons growing out of our garden path - clever feat considering we have never grown them at all! That's it

Just to prove I should NEVER go away!!!! Work was BEDLAM! Although, to be honest we spent most of the morning just catching up on each others gossip. Seems it has ALL been going on while I was away! Glenn and Alison has a MASSIVE bust up - to the point where Glenn is now no longer going to give her the house (thank GOD). It is now plain that Alison has been having an affair with the Landlord of the Mermaid pub, and there was a huge row when Glenn explained that she would HAVE to work 4 days a week just to keep the house paid for, pay for her shrink and her mobile phone. And that she would then have NO money to go out on!!!! Also turns out that Alison has been BEATING Glenn - less so now than in the past, but he used to come to work battered and brused all the time! Guess who's gonna be getting a kicking now?!?! Andrea has had some TERRIBLE news of her own too - it seems the cancer (the reson she had the full hysterectamy) had spread to her pelvic floor - and is still there! However

Well now..... where do I start? Day one - Saturday The car (my dad's) broke down (again - it's a tradition, or an old charter or something that we HAVE to break down on the way to go on holiday) with only 6 miles to go before we get to the Channel Tunnel. Green Flag say they'll come and tow the car, and dad says he's get a hire car to take us on holiday, as it was a bank holiday weekend, and the car wouldn't even get LOOKED at until Tuesday. Ever tried to get a hire car at 3.30pm on a bank holiday Saturday??? Impossible! Every where shuts at 1pm anyway. The only hire car pl;aces open are at the airports. So that meant a 1 hour taxi ride to Gatwick (at £67.00). When we get there the car we booked has been given to some one else! So after much rowing and spitting out of dumbies we agree to take a very nice shiney new Land Rover. Lovely car, shame we can't fit all the louage in it. Dad and Fay have to pack for 6 months even though we're only going away for 6 da

Went to see Shrek 2 yesterday! What a funny film! Laughed so hard I almost CRIED! Went with Yorkie, Fran, Simon, Ray, Sarah and Jordan (frans neph). Only Jordan thought it was dull and almost fell asleep (strange child). After the film we went back to Fran and Simons and watched the Euro Final - I was the only one supporting Greece (well, I do have step-family in Crete) so naturally I was thrilled (and very much alone in that house) when they won! HAHAHA! Today was pretty good too. Sadly no Andrea (but she's had mum-in-law over this weekend, so I'm not suppriesed), but mystiously, no Glenn either.... maybe he did get away - somewhere. Gemma spotted Mobsy and Fee walking across the road so we shouted them into the office for a brew and a chin wag - which was fun (and a good excuse to do very little for an hour, well, I did work through my lunch today, so I reccon I deserved a break). Nice little Slag Off of Alison since Mobsy "knows" her, lol But best of all, when I ge